Writing Month – Day 5

I fail.

I fail so hard.

I really should stop saying things I know I’m not going to get done.

Actually, no, wait. I thought I could have gotten NaNoWriMo done today (well, yesterday now), but I couldn’t. I could reach my goal.

All I got was a measly 566 words! FIVE HUNDRED SIXTY SIX. My goal was to write 2,000 words, but I failed myself. I mean, granted, I’m actually not behind on NaNoWriMo. I’m ahead by several hundred words. However, I failed my personal goal.

I may attempt to make it up tomorrow (today, actually, but I’m writing this from the perspective of it being November 5th, not the 6th), probably writing somewhere between 3,000 to 4,000 words. I need to get into the 10,000s! I’m so, so, SO close.

Of course, I may mess up on that again.

I bet I could have gotten to 10,000 within an hour, but I didn’t because my friend decided to Skype me with a question and we were talking for an hour. I did get like…300 words down or something, but that’s not good enough!

(Warning – if you read more, it’s me rambling about my day.)

Today was just horribly blah for me. I mean, first I was already extremely tired and oh-so-smartly set my alarm to 8:25 AM (which was left over from yesterday since my friend had come over at 11), so I woke up before I was ready and went back to sleep until 12:30 PM, about an hour before my alarm was suppose to ring again. I got a bit distracted, but wrote a bit before heading out to go pick up my sister from school.

Only to find out she wasn’t there and was on a field trip.

My mom forgot to tell me about that.

And that’s when I got a headache.

Oh, how wonderful.

A headache.

In addition to everything from my shoulder blades up aching.

And being tired.

All I wanted to do was sleep, which I had trouble doing.

Then about three hours later my sister and her boyfriend came home and shortly after my mom and my step father. Once again, they were loud. All loud and happy. All talking loudly and screaming like monkeys. I would tell them to shut up, but then they would bring up the fact my stepping is too loud when they try to sleep.

Really, I’ve done my best to stop stepping around at night so they can’t hold it against me.

And they made noise for FIVE HOURS.

FIVE HOURS OF NOISE.

I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH I COULD FALL ASLEEP FOR AN HOUR BEFORE BEING WOKEN UP BY THE NOSE.

All I could think was shut up.

I don’t want to think “shut up”. I want to think about my stories.

But no. Their noise is my mental blocker.

There was no way I was going to write with them still up, especially with how angry they were making me and my stupid headache.

I want to fix my sleeping schedule so it works for my job.

Then they finally went to bed sometime after 10, which left me trying to work on my story at 11, only to become distracted by my friend Skyping me about something.

Should have just shut down all my programs, but meh. Whatever.

Sucks for me.

My fault.

Yeah, yeah. I’m sure you all hate my whining and are gonna tell me just to get over it or tell me how to fix it or whatever.

I just need to rant out my anger.

My headache is better now. It’s still there, but it’s not as bad. Also, my aching body is also better too. So yeah, I’m gonna go to sleep now and hope I wake up feeling refreshed and ready to work!

Definitely looking forward to more NaNoWriMo writing.

I may try my best on Monday to complete short stories as well, but who knows. I say that, but don’t usually do that.